I Spoke Too Soon
Well, here we go again. Just 10 days after my completed project I am told I have to go...
Anyone with a brain has to know that you don't have a chance without a safe place to rest your head and wipe your ass.
In the last 3 years, I have moved no less than 15 times, with moving trucks, half a dozen times. Can you imagine what your life would be like if you had to spend every penny you make on moving, hoping that THIS lace will finally be it???
Every single penny I have made has been spent on trying to have a stable living environment...and now I'm wiped out again.
I have no idea what's next, but I have to admit I'm a bit tired of looking and trying. It seems every time after I get someones household in order, or build their gardens, organize, etc....I get thrown out with the trash next Tuesday...
Here we go again....everyones disposable doll.
Yeah, you tell me not to think that way....I don't! I KNOW who I AM and I KNOW my worth...the problem is, no one else cares enough to help a girl get her life back.
They are too busy with their lives, chasing illusions, distractions....people like me don't matter.
So whether I feel that way about myself is irregardless....clearly that's what everyone else thinks or I woudln't keep being thrown out after I finally get a good nights sleep and think I'm making progress...
Oh well....life as a person that no one loves can be hard...but it also keeps making me stronger. Not that I need to be any stronger...lol I already far surpass the strength of anyone I know...just saying...
So let me ask you....what would YOU do.....keep in mind, if you have family or money or a job, you can't understand where I'm at. But for those who DO understand....tell me what your next step would be? Do I try again? Only to lose hope again??
How many times could you handle being treated this way with no where to go, no one to turn to...?
Have you ever been discarded like trash?
Yeah, I know it doesn't feel good....but what if you were discarded every couple months??? or weeks??? How would you feel? Where would you gain the strength to try again and what would be the reason?
I'm out of reasons and frankly I'm really tired of playing other peoples games. I did not consent to any of this and I have done everything I an to say no to the dark forces, but it is clear I am not allowed a safe place to get my life back and feed myself.
I have asked everyone I know if they have a space in their yard I can pitch a tent, or if they know anyone who does....and yet even though they all have enough room, and even extra rooms in some cases....they all say no. hahahah Not one single person, not one local knows anyone that would let me be their slave and pay them rent to set up a tent and try to establish some normalcy???
So if karma was true....being that I've taken in more than a dozen homeless, fed literally hundreds of people, cared of them without charge, etc....where are all the people opening to their homes for the karma I supposedly put in the bank all these decades? hahahah
Were are all the people I have helped? hmmmmmm......
Please take your karma and shove it up your ass. There is no such thing...good for good, bad for bad.....
The truth is ALL authentic, PURE HEARTS are suffering....It is clear...the more good you do, the more bad you get. The more bad you do the more good you get....
Reference politicians to help you figure that one out. They kill, maim, rape, steal and have the world at their feet....with most of you WARshipping them, trying to be like them, while shaming those authentic souls out here only giving love getting our asses kicked.
It's really sad to see that there's not one single person that will let me pay them for a piece of dirt to pitch a tent...
And if that doesn't happen VERY SOON, I'm going to have to give up.
Don't say that you say? huh....well, YOU walk in my shoes and then talk to me about it. You live with ZERO income, ZERO love, ZERO support, ZERO friends family, ZERO services.....
yeah, explain that one...I haven't had an income since december, but I have to wait till april to receive food stamps! hahahahahaha
There is only one way out, one way to the peace and safety I so deserve....and it will prevent any other blood sucker from harvesting my energy for their agenda.
There is no good reason for one person to have to endure all this alone and there is not one other person that I know that would have been able to make it this far.
For that, I consider it a win. On my last breath will be when I TRULY won.
I made this video the other day about me being homeless again....after only 10 days of having my own place.
I'm sure it will make them a nice art room. Glad I could help! hahaha
Please save your sorries and prayers...I need REAL TANGIBLE HELP! A place to rest my head so I can get back to life. This has gone on long enough. And if there isn't one person on this planet that cares enough about my life enough to give me that hand up so I can further serve my purpose, then I have no desire being here.
Why would I want to be in a place that clearly doesn't want me???
Only someone with Stockholm syndrome....90% of the country would do that...
and to serve as a reminder....THIS is what helps homeless people...not your soup kitchens...only YOU can help by taking a moment to care about someone elses well being for a change.
Check my next blog to see how you can help a homeless person in a REAL life changing way!!!
Blessings and Love,
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